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Things Left Unsaid--Part one of the blog poem series

Snow White

As the white silently encloses
Covering everything it touches
It is so serene
And we go back
Dawning on white blankets of crystallized cool
Sliding into the still of the night.
It is you and your thoughts:
Just one last gaze at the white-
To escape
To forget the night.
Each night.
To forget our thoughts
At least- that is what I imagine it to be like.
It is calm.
Each crystal entering as you lay there
Allowing your body
to finally be free.
White blankets that disregard the worry outside your window
Because one more night with this raw person you were
Seemed like far too much.
So we cover ourselves and watch this peaceful scene as the crystal
Sinks.
It is the silver snake working its way through skin.
And we slumber into transcendence
And learn that heaven is white, too
It is blues and greys. 
Red.
A clear sky morning.
But the earth begins to moan beneath
White blankets fade in and out for those left behind.
For you.
It is years escaped, and the day you have waited for since birth
White crystal,
And liquid coated memory-
Serve as both a story and a grieving process.  
It was no an accident
And there were no goodbyes
but a simple slumber.
Blankets for warming you
Eventually giving way to
Pools
Tides
The red sea
We weep
You become despair.
The bitter ache of hollow memories
And unsaid goodbyes
Left in locks for which
You forgot to leave the key.
Snow.
A new blanket for a grave




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